just a little life update: me and my ex boyf met up and made amends and were cool. foolishly, i decided to meet up with him again and he sexually harassed me and tried to hook up with me, a week after telling me he would never want to be with me again. i have never felt so objectified or used in my life. seeing as i am in contact with his mother, i told her exactly what happened. he got angry at me for this, and i was then victim blamed and told to have a good life and never speak to him again. good riddance.
just kinda wanna talk ab what he did a little more in depth as documentation sort of bc idw forget when i tell ppl. we were having a nice time just meeting up having dinner and talking as friends and then he kept making sexual comments starting about my boobs and i thought it was just like comfortable jokes so i played along bc i didnt wanna make things awkward. it starts off w kinda innocent things bc i talk ab how i might start boxing and he says i will have to protect like my breast area and im like yea ik like stop talking about it but it wasnt like a BAD comment it was just like annoying. then we go outside and he talks ab his nipples being hard bc the cold or something and he asks if mine r and im like “idk bc like the bra and everything” bc like uk im chill. he proceeded to say that i was sexually attractive and i was like “i know, i mean u wud know also (like insinuating that y is he saying this)”. then he decided that it was right to tell me he had a boner. i was like “um really? why???”. and he just shrugged and blah. he continues with the comments and also says something like “i havent jerked off in 2 days” and things like “do u masturbate” and im like “okay hahahaha”. still being chill. then he asks if my butt was still like big. i, still being the chill human being that i am, am like “i mean yeah i guess it hasnt shrunken or gotten bigger bc like i didnt do cross country” and hes like “wouldnt cross country have made it smaller” and im like “na prob bigger idk” then he goes to touch my ass and does it twice and i just laugh it off and im like “u cant do that anymore” (i kept saying that constantly throughout this like “u cant say that to me anymore” and things like that). then, sometime throughout this he takes my hand and puts it on his crotch????? i pull my hand away and kind of ignore it. he then makes comments about me like being on my knees and choking on something and not being able to breathe and im like “haha what did u say??? what do u mean???”. then after a little more of this he then says “i could hook up with u if u want” and thats when i lose it and ask why hes such a dick and stuff but still not really letting it all out. we walked in silence back to his building. then since i didnt really say all i wanted to say, i text him afterwards letting him know how upset i am over it. he blames it on his hormones and me being flirty. since me and his mother are in contact, i text her letting her know that her son disrespected and objectified me, kinda letting her know there is no future and we are officially done. (also his mother should just know hes a pig) i call her and tell her most of the details of what happened, and she says she’ll talk to him. when she does, he texts me back further blaming me although he’s the one who fucked up saying “Sorry if i made u feel uncomfortable but dont fucking call my mom and talk shit about me. If u wanna call me aggressive when u were beung a flirt then have fun, but dont try to get my family in this shit. U dont fucking know me, and dont act like u do. Have a good life and dont talk to me again”. this was the second time we saw each other in 4 months, and the week before he told me he only loved me as family and would never want to be with me again. even though i was kind of laughing at it, i never initiated touch or showed him that it was ok to touch me, and most girls know how hard it is to speak out when ur in situations like these bc udw to make things awkward and what not. hes fucking disgusting and i cant believe i ever loved him or believed he actually could have loved me. and also it kinda just hurts to have someone who broke ur heart see u as merely a sex object
